Saturday, January 29, 2005
yawn. just woke up not long ago.
still waiting for muh tuition teacher.
she's
always late.
was supposed to be in school today.
for bio + phy remedial.
but i overslept.
lols..
last nite he stayed over at muh place.
went back to camp this morning.
gotta wait till tmr.
oh yeah. heard from muh girls that farah's resting at home.
she's got dengue fever.
oh muh dear. take lotsa care kays.
i miss lots of muh girls!
been quite busy with school.
didnt have enough time to catch up.
sorry girls.. i miss y'all
loads!
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
ouhkayy. school's gettin' better and better nowadays. lols. dearie just went back to camp. went to meet him at cck just now. cos he got nightsoff ma.. haha. oh great. i got a D7 for physics and it totally suck. and my chinese..it's getting worse! now i cant even write a simple compo on "yi jian ling wo yi han de shi". nvm. all along my chinese has been very, very and very sucky.
im still looking for a purpose in life. thinking wad am i gonna do everyday, and in the future. searching for a goal. life is so meaningless without a purpose. wad does God wants me to do? ......but currently my ambition is to be a
taitai, marry a rich and soooooper faithful guy, sitting at home shaking muh leg, go shopping everyday and wait for my husband to be home. lols. am i too naive? this is too impossible for me. muahaha. nvm. im lame.
Sunday, January 23, 2005
school's starting again tmr. ive been rather busy these days, that's y i didnt update for the past week. dear's on his way back to camp already. how i miss him...
guess wad? ive painted my room pink! finally. dearie came and helped me out and we had loadsa fun playing with da paint. lols. really so fortunate to have dearie by my side.
huggies and kisses to my darling!! i wan that moment when he's hugging me to last
foreva.
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
i didnt attend school today. was too tired to do anything and everything. dear woke me up at 7.30am but i dun really care. lols. sorry darling. am rotting at home now. just changed my skin. ive been searching for new skins these days. none are nice. this is da best i can find. so bored. sis's home. super sian. got tuition at nite. ohmygoodness. someone pls let me die. dearie's outfield. i miss him. cant call him so often now.
BUT he'll be going back to camp tmr morning! yay!
Sunday, January 16, 2005
wad's new for me on a sunday? went to church as usual. dear fell asleep during service. haha. cos he slept at ard 3+ last nite due to the anger i had in him, resulting him to bomb my fone till late at nite. lols. didnt want to talk to him in church today.. but he made me so gan ga. asking me how long is this gonna go on. -.-" i feel so weird talking to him abt this issue in church. lols. den we went for lunch somewhere near bedok interchange. after that had da teens cell grp meeting in church, went over to rui chen's place in da evening cos dear's got his meeting too. nua-ed at amk with rena and muh darling. ahaha. dear booked in already. i miss him.. hais.
this week was tiring for me. school, piano lessons, tuition, spending time with my bb. didnt have enough sleep these days. dark eye rings are slowly showing themselves.. yawnx.
Saturday, January 15, 2005
im freakin' tired. dear stayed over at my place last nite. how nice. for the past dunno how many hours, i was sleeping so soundly in his arms. we were at esplanade enjoying the sea breeze before we came home. ahahs. dear really made me love him more and more each day.. weeeeeeee~
Thursday, January 13, 2005
so tired. didnt sleep tight for the past few nites. slept late and woke up early, disturb by calls in the middle of the nite. school life's getting better, maybe because ive met more new friends. dear came to my house for dinner last nite. he said he missed homecooked food. haha. today i'm like so tired. went to meet doreen after school. my legs are like... rotting, decomposing into fungi. aha. ouhkayy. im like late for sch everyday. wad do u expect? it's at dhoby ghaut which is like 11 stops away from home. and we're waiting for the Tardy King - robin, every morning. but it's ok lah.. ahaha.
have u ever heard people saying, "eating pineapples can cause a miscarriage."? i think it totally doesnt makes sense. if this is true, abortion clincs can just close down. lame right? there was this friend of mine who got pregnant, and she didnt have money to abort the baby. so she took pineapples everyday, thinking that it can cause the baby to 'die' after a few weeks.. -.-" faint. it's like saying that giving birth in the day will make my baby prettier. wahaha. wtf am i talking about now. wadeva.
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
i hate dearie! hmmph.
i've been rather busy these days. school started yesterday and i was like.. totally blur. hahas. luckily robin, zx & sebas are with me. so many new faces, weirdos and act-bengs. faint. tutorials were boring, lectures was worse! the school is like so ma fan. have to go from one building to another for different lessons. and it's like must climb i think four flights of stairs!! 9-5pm lor. PE have to go until tampines stadium. i swear i'll never go. haa.. but we have our own smoking breaks in between. teachers all blur cocks one. really fainted. someones pls call da ambulance. lols. overall, that school is boring~
Sunday, January 09, 2005
my legs are so tired and rotten after all da walking at p.s. with dearie.. we went to catch Seed of Chucky which is
NOT wad i expected. the story is so fugly lame and gross. omg. but some parts quite funnay. ahahakz. not very scary though. next movie im targeting is Kungfu Hustle. dunno nice anot.
someone pls tell me it's nice. before that we had lunch at cafe cartell, resulted in this:
-BURP-
wahaha. i just reached home awhile ago.. dearie's booking in tonite. having dinner later with my mama + papa + meimei. lols.
Saturday, January 08, 2005
as i blog, im eating my chocolate pound cake. last nite met dearie at abt 11.3opm. before that was at 418 with doreen and joseph. met up with dear for only an hr! tmd. stupid daddy..kpkb. make me go home so early. nvm. i'll be meeting him later on. wahaha.
im so hungry. dear went out with his family to have lunch. -.-" den im left all alone at home. mum's at work, sis's in school, dad's out. sian1/2.. super dooper hungry. pound cake's not enough for fatty me. gonna jio ppl out for lunch. lols.
Friday, January 07, 2005
hmmph. stupid army! stupid sungei gedong! stupid government!
FARKER. i wait for the whole week just to see my darling den got wad stupid celebration. shit la. den must wait afew more hours.. wtf. i was expecting 7+ lor. den now they delay till 9+!!!! simi officer change? simi handover? farkoff la stupid officer! stupid parade! everything
STUPID STUPID STUPID!!!!
Thursday, January 06, 2005
great. ive got nothing better to do at home, so here am i, blogging
again. sometimes i think i blog too much.. which i seriously NOT how i spend my free time in the past.
everything's fine with me n dearie now. how nice.. i just want to sit with him in his cosy arms by the seaside, watching da sunrise and let time stop there. i wanna make it last
FOREVER. it might be too early to talk abt that now, but who doesnt want to last till eternity with da one u love? looking back, all da farking bastards i had as mua boyfriends.. ex-boyfriends i should say, suck
to the bloody core of hell. i used to think that ive found my MrRight but wad i got in return was just
a pack of fugly lies. they made empty promises, stupid vows, even sweared in da name of their parents just to cheat my chastity. fine. ive had enuff of those. all i want is just true happiness and now, i strongly believe, this is wad jason can give me.
haa.. something's wrong with mua. i just love my darling loadsssssss..!
things wouldnt be the same anymore. i wont be my usual self, we wont be as close as we were. i cried becos i love him too much to let go. i dared not reply his sms-es or pick up his calls. i was just so afraid when he was angry. and this useless me, was just sobbing in my room. i feel so pathetic. all i do is cry, cry, cry! omg. this is the first time i cried over guys for small matters. this is the first time ive
EVER in my whole life being afraid of a guy. oh no. wad's happening to me.. i didnt dare to sms him when i woke up - which i always do. should i just wait for his call? wad if he doesnt call? hais.. wad am i gonna do now? im seriously losing confidence in myself and this relationship.
ive fallen into a deep deep hole. someone pls get me out!
im sorry dearie...
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
it's da 5th day of 2oo5. kinda not used to it -
2oo5. brand new year, brand new start fer mua. i'm turning sweeet 17 in 8mths and 19days. lols. time really flies. a blink of an eye an im taking my O's this yr. it seems like ive just entered sec skool. sad thing is that dear's gonna miss my bdae, and i cant spend christmas with him!!
qi si wo. sadded.
met up with xiao juan in da noon for lunch den to causeway point with christine. doris came to meet mua after that. im broke
again. trulymadlydeeply broke. gotta wait for CNY. haaa.. im waiting, waiting and STILL waiting for friday. cant wait to see my darling. lols.
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
okayys. here am i blogging again. ahahakz. nothing much happened these days.. was rotting at home for da past few days.. this is da 7543544248 times ive changed my skin -.-" ..thought that i should get something simple like this...
had some small lil' arguements with dearie the nite before. i realised im very weak.. hais.. abit only cry. maybe bcos i love him too much and im afraid to lose him. but the way he spoke to me so harshly really hurt me. haiya. nvm.. now nothing le. =D i miss muh honey-bunny sooooo much~ ahahakz.
Saturday, January 01, 2005
HAPPY NEW YEAR!! really hope 2oo5 will be a better year for me to move on.
my countdown wasn't as exciting as the others as town. i went to church *heee* for watchnite service leh.. so guai rite? den went home after some refreshments. nothing much to blog about actually.
meeting muh boo later and im gonna bathe le. tata!!
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